Thursday, October 13, 2011

The most terrible mom in the world.

I will forever be known as THAT mom. THE mom that killed the family pet. Yes, I did it, I killed Sara's bird yesterday. It was a complete accident of course. How you might ask? Well...I stepped on it - we were all sitting down for dinner and it was under the dining room table (may I mention that Sara is the one that let the bird out to roam as she often does...but I digress) and as I sat down all I felt was something soft under my foot. Thank goodness the little thing did not suffer, it died within moments. The whole family watched it happen, it was awful - Sara started screaming and crying, Chad grabbed the bird and ran to the bathroom, I grabbed Sara, and Seth sat in his booster seat wonder what was happening. Sara cried all night long. I felt so horrible - like the most terrible mother in the whole world. My poor baby just cried and cried. And to make things even more heart-wrenching, Sara has been getting ready to celebrate the bird's birthday, which is next week - she's been making birthday invitations and designing a special cupcake for the bird... And all day today Seth kept pointing at the bird cage saying "Birdie all gone", I didn't even realize he knew what was going on - double guilt.

Later last evening we went through our pictures and ordered prints of the bird. I picked up the prints and bought a picture frame for Sara's room. I also got Sara a journal so she can write down her thoughts and feels. Sara shared some of what she wrote, it says "My first day the bird died was awful. It was so sad. I did not want this day to come. I feal a littal beter right now. I now want to say I love you. I am rilly sad to say I will never get to see you agen. I will miss you Chubby Cheeks. You had to pass away one day. We pray for a bird that is nice but died. We miss her from are harets. I love you 10 times."


La Belle Vie said...

My heart just broke reading her journal entry. Big hugs to all of you & lots of love. xx
ps. From what I've come to know of you as a Mom you are easily one of the best Mom's I know. ♥ xx

Melissa said...

Oh no!!! I'm so sorry! That is rough. When I started reading, I thought, "She must be being sarcastic," and surely I think you are far from the worst mom (the opposite end of the spectrum), but oh, you must feel awful. I'm so sorry.

BCMommy said...

Oh no! Poor Sarah! That makes me so sad. I hope she feels better soon. Don't feel bad, she will realize it was a freak accident, I am sure.

You are a rock star Mom!


Janice said...

Oh and now to see the picture of the cute little bird, it makes it seem all the more real. I hope Sara has forgiven you.


shannon said...

Oh Laura,

So so sorry to read this post
Beyond awful , I hope the last week has helped with the healing for all.
You are still an amazing mom and Sarah will heal with your help.

Sarah Rodgerson said...

Oh no, I am so sorry to hear that. It must have been an awful feeling. You are not the worst mom in the world though, accidents happen!

Ranavan and Wee One said...

Oh no!!! What a sad post!!! I can't imagine how any of you felt that day!

Sending love and hugs,

(p.s. for some reason your posts are not showing up on my google reader! So that is why I haven't commented in a while! Sorry friend!)