February has ended and we have reached 20 months of waiting. I just don't have the energy to collect all my thoughts in an organized post, so instead, I have compiled some random thoughts, feelings, things to ponder about adoption, waiting and life in general...
Congratulations to all the families who passed court this month. I hope by the time you travel, I can send a care package along with you.
Thank you secret pal for the wonderful gift! And even better, were your words of encouragement in the card. This is my first time participating in secret pal and I'm so glad I did. Can't wait until March.
The only good thing about not getting a referral during February is that it is a short month and it is now over.
Why do I ALWAYS pick the slow line at the grocery store?
It is really shitty that there have been no referrals in almost four weeks.
My birthday is this Friday. I wonder if my wish will come true? I turn 36. If someone told me 10 years ago that I would not be finished having all my children by the time I was 36 - I would have truly laughed at them uncontrollably.
I have had a constant knot in my stomach for over a month. Is that normal?
I am slowly letting go of Sara's clothes having to match. She now picks out her outfits for school each morning, and if she likes it, she wears it. Breathe, breathe...hot pink and red DO look just fine together.
I just started a Circuit Training DVD, by Jillian Michaels (from the Biggest Loser) - pain...burn...exhausion - how can that feel good??? But it does!
I wish we had planned a hot holiday this winter.
Will I run the marathon this year or won't I???? If I do, I better get my lazy ass into gear very soon.
It means SO much to me that there are so many wonderful people in my life (in person and online) that keep me going each and everyday - every little bit of encouragement is appreciated and so needed, especially right now.
I am not sleeping very well lately, which is unusual for me.
I am sick and tired of telling people "maybe we will hear something tomorrow, or next week, or next month, we just don't know", with a cute smile and shrug of the shoulders.
I am upset for C, L, R, and S, with all the crap they are going through right now - no one should have to go through that!
Will March be THE month?