Monday, February 09, 2009

"Expect a summer referral"

That is what I was told today. The funny things is that it didn't even seem to really phase me. I have become numb over the past couple months and have gone into complete denial - I think this is my way of coping and protecting myself from having to feel anything right now.

Numb...not a terrible place to be...I can't feel a thing.

13 comments:

Janice said...

Ugh!! That makes me numb too. Can you give me some details about your converstion?

Sarah Rodgerson said...

This is awful, I cannot believe you are looking at a year wait for a child under 18 months! There is nothing easy about this process, that is for sure. Thinking of you, I know how hard it is to hear the news that your referral is coming much later than you expected....

Sarah

Rana and Yvan said...

Wow, I wish I could say the right thing but coming from experience I know there is nothing anyone can say! I understand the numbness completely

Thinking of you,

Rana

Melissa said...

I just might cry.

Lorie said...

I know that there aren't words to help right now but please know I DO know how you feel. I look back at the person I was before we started this process and I look at myself now and some days I don't like what it's done to me. It's so hard. I would be Ok with things if I felt like we were given an honest timeline up front and If the communication was better.

Anyway, you're in my thoughts today.

Lorie

D Dae said...

Thinking of you, I know how hard these waits are.

Chad, Laura and Sara said...

Well, admittedly, I may have made my post bleaker then it really is. Bottom line is that the response I received was vague and not very encouraging. Basically saying that if you expect a summer referral you will not be disappointed each month and if it happened earlier it would be a nice surprise.

Alysia and Derrick said...

Wow. I have given us a 12.5 month window, hoping for a referral by Christmas. But it looks like I might have to alter that idea. If you end up waiting 12 months and you're 7 months along now, we're in trouble. At only two months along, if the times keep extending this fast . . . I just can't even go there.

Lavonne said...

Oh Laura, I'm so sorry. No matter what they said about expecting a summer referral so you're not hoping each month, this is hard news to swallow.

lyndsey&kevin said...

I went numb at 7 months too, now that we are at 10.5 I am Frustrated..... numb was better. We are also told maybe the summer..... ARGGG... ONE day it WILL come

The Warren Family said...

Our dossier landed 1 month after yours and I was really hoping the wait wouldn't extend to be that long. Not much we can do about it however...aH!, I feel numb too!

Ramona said...

I wish I could offer some wonderful words to help with the wait- your post above this indeed has the word that will keep you going: "hope".

I understand the numb feeling. And, at 15.5 plus months, I've now added guarded. As numb as I am thinking I am, I still need to guard my little heart... This journey is a tough one and I am so thankful for you and the others I've met along the way.

Hang in there and keep hoping.

Ramona

Greg and Leanne said...

I hear you. Numb works, but keep the blessings in mind, the daily blessings. The wait will seem like a blink of an eye...