What if we did not make the right choice to go international - what if we would already be holding our second child if we would have just stuck out the wait in our domestic adoption - what if we would have been a few months faster with our dossier - what if we would have known the wait was going to be this long from the start...would we have still chosen this path?
I know, I know hind sight is twenty-twenty, don't dwell on the past, what is meant to be will be, blah blah blah....I already know all this, sometimes I just need to try to make sense of all this; it's the way my head works. But I also don't like to dwell on the "what ifs" in my life, because what do I really have to complain about? Is my life really that tragic? This is what I know about my life:
I have a beautiful daughter who fills my life with joy.
I have an amazing, loving, supportive husband.
I am healthy.
I have parents and family who would do anything for me.
I live in a free country, where I can say what I want, when I want.
I have a job. I have a job that I enjoy.
I have no debt (besides the usual - house, car).
I am thankful and so fortunate to have these blessings in my life - So it's taking a few extra years then we thought it would for us to have a family. Yes, it is MY story and MY reality. But is my story really something to write/talk/complain about? When we look back on our life, these years will simply look like a bump along the way - Right?
I need to believe that this too shall pass...