I have not felt this impatient and anxious since before the bankruptcy - I predicted months ago that these feelings would come once referrals resumed - whether it was a self-fulfilling prophecy or just the natural feelings that comes with waiting (again).
The referral poll I posted didn't help either – I thought the poll would be cute and I posted it with full intentions for it to be light-hearted and fun. With these anxious feelings resurfacing, the poll did not seem so light after all - I soon realized as the votes started coming in that no one would be able to provide "the right" answer for me, because the reality is that there just isn't one. If you voted “January or February” I wanted to know why you felt so confident and whether you knew something that I didn’t or wondered why you were giving me such false hopes. If you voted “March or April” I thought you were just telling me what I wanted to hear - trying to be logical, or picking the standard middle "C" answer - not too much not too little. If you voted "May and Longer" I was irritated at your pessimism and wondered why you were being so negative and discouraging (or maybe I'm just not ready for that reality yet). So bottom line - nothing you could have voted would have been the right choice; no matter how supportive or justified you were.
I know I am being way to melodramatic - the poll was in fun and the results really don't mean anything at all...so, I apologize for my negativity, it is certainly not intended to deter any support - as I will take all the support I can get right now. Just having a down couple of days...but am pushing through.
Maybe I will lay off the polls for a bit :0)