We found out late last week that we will in deed be travelling for court. I enquired with our agency on whether they thought we might still be able to make the court deadline of May 9th if we got our referral within the next week and we were told, in no uncertain terms that "it will not be possible to beat the deadline".
I have been holding onto so much hope lately, trying not to let things get to me too much. But when I got this news, I just lost it - literally, I was in the middle of a course and tears started welling up and I had to bolt for the door, I found an empty classroom and began "the ugly cry" and cried and cried and cried and cried. It's not like I didn't think that travelling for court was not going to be a possibility - it was hearing it so matter-of-fact. There have been many things piling up lately, and this news (as unsurprising as it may have seemed) was the straw that broke my emotions - and I have not cried like that in a very long time.
We will also be starting our homestudy update this week and that has been a very hard pill to swallow - but I have had my big cry and pity party and now we move forward...we really have no other choice, do we?