22 freakin' months of waiting - Really? Really? To be completely honest, I am actually a bit shocked that I am even having to post about this - I have been so hopeful this month. And the fact that this crazy adoption can still shock me, shocks me - I really should know better by know, don't you think?
I am tired of letting people down. I am tired of calling friends and family and the voice on the other end says "Hello???" - with the kind of "hello" that is a question, not a statement or greeting. And I have to reply with "Nothing new" before I start into the unimportant reason for my call - and I can sense their disappointment even though they say nothing.
At this point, I am feeling like "the call" will be so anticlimactic - with no surprise or shock value whatsoever - with feelings of "IT'S ABOUT DAMN TIME"!!! Please don't get me wrong, I will scream, shot, and celebrate as hard as anyone would; however, there will certainly be an element of "FINALLY".
We are blessed with so many wonderful people cheering us on and it is just so hard to have absolutely nothing to say to them. I think their are other people that might feel the same way once our referral comes - thrilled and excited, but "it's about time!"
I know he will be perfect and I know it will all make sense when I see his face - it's just so hard right now.