Confession Friday, Jan 7

I confess that we celebrated New Years at 11:00pm and I was in bed just after 11:30pm.

I confess that every night before our court dates I have laid in bed awake all night counting the time difference between us and Ethiopia and wonder if our fate has been decided - "1am here is 10am in Ethiopia, maybe", "4am here is 1pm in Ethiopia, likely", "7am here is 4pm in Ethiopia, definitely", etc.

I confess that I check my email, blog, and forum a few times each hour. Pathetic I know.

I confess that my blog has just reached over 250,000 hits. However, after my last confession, I can safely say that I likely make up quite a few of those hits myself.

I confess that a very dear friend of mine sent me the most beautiful pendant (it says "Mother" in Amharic) in September and I wore it almost everyday, but put it at the bottom of my sock drawer when I arrived home from Ethiopia and have not looked at it since.

I confess that I have been a one-way blogger lately. I have been posting from time-to-time but have not been reading or commenting on many others.

I confess that I think all the time about where we would be right now if we would have passed on our first court date.

I confess that I did not send out Christmas cards this year, for the first time ever, and now I'm feeling guilty.

I confess that my 6-year-old daughter is in love with Justin Bieber. Like IN LOVE LOVE LOVE. She talks about him non-stop and when she watches his videos on YTV her face goes red and she hides under a blanket where just her eyes are showing. She received a Justin Bieber board game from our friends for Christmas and I have played that bloody game about 50 times already. Did you know that Justin Bieber has a dog named Sammy, his favorite color is purple, his bodyguards name is Buddy, he plays the piano and guitar, and his middle name is Drew...

I confess that I know way too much about Justin Bieber.

I confess that I HATE winter and that January is my least favor month, cuz it's still a long way to spring.

I confess that our life right now would make a great "Based on a True Story, Made for TV Movie", but not the Hallmark kind.

I confess that I bought Sara her first pair of skinny-jeans at Christmas. I have avoided buying them for over a year, but I finally succumbed after the billionth ask.

I confess that I am debating training for the full marathon again. I better decide, cuz I will need to get my ass in gear very soon.

I confess that I desperately want to see new pictures of Seth, even though we know he might not come home - he may not be our son, but he is still our boy.

I confess that the situation we are currently in is much more complex than missing or updating paperwork.

I confess that I prepared most of this post the same day I posted my last confession.